Awesome, I’m stoked to meet him. I’m looking forward to the Zion trip, I’m going to have to break off from the Indoc course for a day or so but that shouldn’t be a big deal. I’m thinking about building an (amateur, I know) wood bed/rack for the truck until I figure out exactly what I’m going to do. Looking forward to talking with **** both at the Games and in Zion.
I haven’t read “On Combat”, still finishing Blood and Thunder. It’s my bedtime book, so I’m only knocking out a few pages a day. Not sure what’s up next on the reading list, probably a good travel book about a guy and his dog.
The Games are upon us, so next week is major cookie making time, then a long drive up to Aromas.
Also, I think I told you already, when I get back from the Games I’m going to set a date to speak with some local SD SWAT guys re. MindEx stuff; I’ll talk to **** (do you know him) when I get back about squaring that away. Very excited about that, it will open up all kinds of doors.
Re. the sheepdog stuff: I like it and understand it, and I can really see how it resonates with many of the guys we both know. I think there’s a category that’s missing. I don’t see myself (along with a few other people) as a sheep, sheepdog, or wolf. I mean, is Billy the Indian school guy a sheep? A sheepdog? A wolf?
I’m not super interested in protecting other folks, but am very keen on being independent and ready for the wolf when he comes slipping past the wire, more with what’s at hand than any specific instrument. Is that blindness or denial? Are you really a sheep when you don’t have a gun?
“if you want to be a sheepdog and walk the warrior’s path, then you must make a conscious and moral decision every day to dedicate, equip and prepare yourself to thrive in that toxic, corrosive moment when the wolf comes knocking at the door.” ‑DG
I’ll tell you this; I feel more like a loosely independent feral sonofabitch that has friends in all tribes, and I’m real happy with how I live. I’ve got a great wife and partner, two good dogs, and the means to always make a living within my head and my heart. I don’t feel a need to carry a gun, and I don’t see the value in pinning my identification (even in a small part) on being a protector. Maybe I’ve been composting my own shit too long, but I’d like to see some more gardeners, or shepherds, or wild and kind humans. Folks without maybe the agility or natural weapons of a sheepdog or wolf, but who use their minds to do many more things than tend a flock of vegetarians. Was Gandhi a sheep? A sheepdog? Hell, he was a wolf to the English, and a warrior to his core, but not in a way that fits into Grossman’s categories.
“But if you are authorized to carry a weapon, and you walk outside without it, just take a deep breath, and say this to yourself…
Maybe he meant a weapon beyond the sense of a gun, or knife, but I don’t think so. I think this is the kind of thinking that holds us in stasis; we move neither forward nor backward. We still have wolves and we still have bad ass sheepdogs. It is damnably exciting to be a sheepdog (or a wolf), but it’s draining too. Even Grossman says it; you can’t be a sheepdog 24/7. Well, then who the heck are you?
How do we move into a society where we don’t need as many sheepdogs? How do we create a society that is not one of sheep, or sheepdogs, but maybe something that wolves avoid…going with the animal example, why not bears? They keep themselves to themselves, they eat just about anything they can catch, and a sane wolf stays the hell away from them.
None of that is a judgment on how you live; I like what you do and I’m damn thankful for cops and soldiers; being a sheepdog is a good, honorable, difficult job where you have to make decisions every day about a line I’ll hopefully never cross.
I just feel that we’ve got a lot more discussion ahead of us before we make a 3 way split in what defines, even in a small way, a person. I see such potential for making shepherds out of sheepdogs, something I thought of (although not by the sheep/dog/wolf definition) as a long-term goal for kyk13.
Hell, re-reading that I can see maybe I’m taking it too literally (or personally). I do want to make clear that I like sheep, sheepdogs, and even the occasional wolf, and I see a place for all of them as well as a few more animals in a good and healthy eco-system. Looking forward to more discussion when we meet again in the flesh.
Ok for now,